Showing posts with label tefillah. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tefillah. Show all posts

Sunday, November 5, 2017

My Open Prayer for One of Hashem's Missing Children

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Dedicated to Jesse Galganov (Chaim Yosef ben Aliza) with a prayer from the heart...

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Hashem, Ribono Shel Olam...  Your children cry to you from konphot ha'aretz, the corners of the earth, and we're united in agony and bated breath, praying to you from the depths of our heart.
Please Hashem, let our tefillos not come before you too late; we pray that this not be a prayer in vain...

Please save and protect Chaim Yosef ben Aliza from all danger, harm, distress and misfortune.  Please be by his side, his faith and strength, no matter where he is.  Just as you protected Sarah Imeinu in the decadent palaces of Paroh and Avimelech, please bring forth her grandchild, Your child, Hashem, from this disaster untouched.

Please instill Chizuk and Emunah within Chaim Yosef, his family, and all the brave people who are searching for him.  Hashem, everything we may try, and every step of our search, is futile without Your blessing and intervention.  When Hagar had practically given up on her child Yishmael, who was in mortal danger in his illness and thirst, you heeded the lad's call, and opened Hagar's eyes to what was always present before her:  Your life-sustaining waters, the cure and salvation.  "Vayifkach Elokim et-aineyha vateireh b'eir mayim... - Then G-d opened her eyes and she perceived a well of water..." {Bereishis 21:19}.  Please G-d, may You make such a miracle for us; open our eyes to Your kindness and salvation!  Show us the way, and sustain our beloved Jewish brother, even if he is walking in the "valley of the shadow..."

Please protect and save Chaim Yosef ben Aliza.  He, like every Jewish child, was named with a degree of nevua (prophecy), as we are taught...  Chaim Yosef ben Aliza:  Chaim, Hashem, for the beautiful path of life You have set before him, in all its practically infinite possibility and opportunity.  Please do not take this away, and sustain and strengthen him to traverse the path of life that You've laid before him, in all its chapters, its highlights and rough-spots...  Yosef, Hashem, as You released Yosef haTzadik from the prison.  Please Hashem, redeem him from whatever confinement he may be in!   "Baruch Atah Hashem... matir asurim - Blessed are You, Hashem... Who releases the bound."  Ben Aliza, Hashem, for we plead with You that he comes forth from this in light and life, and that he become the son of our joy, the heart of our joyful laughter and cries of gratitude to you!

In times of danger, Hashem, the Satan always accuses...  Please, may Your Divine Rachmanus override any other force.  Forgive, please, and cleanse us of any of  aveiros or shortcomings that might incline You to decree dark or bitterness for Your people.  Please help us to acknowledge where we must grow and improve, guide us to do so, for we can only do it with Your assistance, to grow ourselves, and make ourselves worthy of Your salvation.

Although we are as nothing before You Hashem, please, bring us over the threshold, the final hill, to Redemption.  Hashem, the suffering and pain is becoming far too great...  How much more can we survive?  Please, bring us into the Ultimate Geulah!  Reunite us with all our loved ones, and draw us close, Your children, to You.

May the cries, tears, prayers, efforts make their mark before Your Heavenly Throne.  "Avinu Malkeinu, kabeil b'rachamim uv'ratzon es tefilaseinu - Our Father, Our King, accept- with compassion and favor- our prayer."

"So may it be His will, and let us say Amein."

Jesse (Chaim Yosef) Galganov, with his mother Alisa (Aliza) Clamen[/caption]


Thursday, October 19, 2017

Parshat Noach: "Whatever Floats Your Boat..?"

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Good Shabbos!


I dedicate this parsha-post l'ilui nishmas all those who tragically perished in the recent California wildfires, and as a zechus for brachos, yeshua, refuah, nechama, koach and achdus, for their survivors and those who are rebuilding their homes and lives.

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YOU ARE THERE...

The entire world population is corrupt in all their ways.  Civilization is crumbling.  Murder and all sorts of unspeakable acts are rampant among the cruel and base.  The world is devoid of holiness, and the Creator has been forgotten.  Any and all foundations and traces of morality and humanity have been dissolved in the world.  That is, with the exception of your righteous family.  Wickedness and degeneracy press in from all sides, raging constantly outside your door, but you stand strong against the current.  You know there is a one and only G-d, and you desire only His ways.  These days, the darkness and destruction is so great, that G-d comes to you, with very grave news.  "And Hashem regretted that He had made man upon the earth, and He became grieved in His heart. {Bereishis 6:6}"  He tells you...
"Va'Ani hin'ni mayvi et-ha'mabul mayim al-ha'aretz l'shacheit kol-basar asher-bo ruach chaim mitachas hashamayim kol asher-ba'aretz yigva -- And I, behold I am bringing the flood, water upon the earth, to destroy all flesh in which there is the spirit of life, from beneath the heavens; all that is upon the earth will perish." {6:17}
What do you do?

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In truth, one could respond with various reactions.  Upon learning that finally, at last, you would be swept up and away from the corruption, bloodshed, and evil, that you would no longer suffer and struggle to faithfully maintain your morals, and that justice would be meted out... wouldn't you rejoice?  Or would you go into shock at such a serious change in G-d's judgement of the human race?  Or would it perhaps be possible to even feel pity, even for the greatest reshaim, as they were about to be hurled into total annihilation?

When being made aware of G-d's choice to destroy the world by inundating it with the waters of the Flood, Noach is criticized by Chazal and Meforshim, for remaining passive in response to the fatal future of the people.  They level against him the examples of Avraham Avinu and Moshe Rabbeinu.  The former actually contended with G-d to save the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah, in the merit of the tzadikim who dwelt there.  Ultimately, Avraham's assertions didn't prevail, and G-d destroyed the two sinful cities.  However, Avraham's profound haggling with Hashem made an impression, and left an indelible mark on the message of prayers and compassion.  The same praise can be applied to the latter, Moshe Rabbeinu; for after the Cheit Eigel Hazahav (Sin of the Golden Calf), G-d was furious with the serious failure of His newborn People.  He pledged to wipe them out, and to crown Moshe as the sole nation and legacy of Israel, but that is not what Moshe sought.  He acknowledged the error that had been committed, but he still argued for the preservation of the people, and his prayer was not without great Mesiras-Nefesh.  He said "V'atah im-tisa chatasa v'im-ayin m'chaini na misifracha asher kasavta - Now if you will forgive their sin-- but if not, erase me from the Book which You have written! {Shemos 32:32}"  He pleaded with Hashem until He forgave His children.  Both Avraham and Moshe took action, spoke up, and prayed fervently on the behalf of others... even if the individuals who would benefit from their prayers left much to be desired.

Noach accepted the gezeirah faithfully, but on the other hand approached the matter with an attitude of "whatever floats Your boat, G-d" (pun intended!).  Avraham Avinu and Moshe Rabbeinu, certainly not any less faithful, took the opposite route and protested against Hashem's negative decrees.  They weren't going to go along quietly with the plan, for they had unshakeable belief in G-d's ultimate goodness.  He could guide anyone to the highest levels of wisdom and holiness.  They knew His compassion, forgiveness, and faith in the potential of mankind transcended any boundary.  So arguing with G-d?  Perhaps it's a higher level of emunah than we realize.  R' Tzvi Freeman perfectly captures these epic moments and their eternal message in his Daily Dose of Wisdom, please see here and here.

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We still might feel inclined to ask, just where we should draw the line, between passive, quiet acceptance of G-d's will, and crying out to him in prayerful plea or protest.

A person might become angry or depressed when they feel that G-d is ignoring their prayers.  A bit of enlightenment on this, in a quote from the Ponovezher Rav, R' Yosef Shlomo Kahaneman ZT"L:  "We think that when our prayers go unanswered, G-d wasn't responsive to us.  In truth, He was.  He responded, "No!"  I'll admit that this piece of honest irony gave me a smile, as well as much to think about.  But when G-d answers "No", how does one proceed?  One must keep praying, of course!  G-d might not grant us our plea, because we might not be asking for what's right for us; but He also might put off His response, so to speak, when we're not praying with the fullest kavanah, or if we haven't reached our greatest prayer-potential.  This is why He withheld children from Avraham and Sarah, Yitzchak and Rivkah, Rochel and Chana.  He knew that the intensity, perseverance, and faith, that permeated their continuous prayers, would shape and refine them into even greater Tzadikim and forbears.  He desired their righteous prayers greatly.

But once Hashem's decree has come to pass, we do not pray to Him to halt or relieve us of it any longer.  This is explained in Mishna Berachos {Perek 9, Mishna 3}:
"Ha'tzo'aik l'she'avar, harei zo tefilas shav.  Kaitzad?  Haiysa ishto m'uberes, v'amar: 'Y'hi ratzon shetayled ishti zachar,' harei zo tefilas shav.  Hayah va vaderech v'shama kol tz'vacha ba'ir, v'amar: 'Y'hi ratzon shelo yihyu eilu bnei vaisi,' harei zo tefilas shav. -- (If) one prays regarding the past, this is a prayer in vain.  How so?  (If) one's wife was pregnant, and he said 'May it be (G-d's) will that my wife will give birth to a male,' this is a prayer in vain.  (If) one was coming along the road, and he heard the sound of screaming in the city, and he said 'May it be (G-d's) will that those (who are screaming) not be (members of) my household,' this is a prayer in vain."
The first example given is in the case of the unborn baby's gender having already been determined.  A continued prayer for a certain child is pointless after this finalization, so you wouldn't pray to G-d to change the developing child after the fact.  Similarly, in the case of the second example; whoever made the outcry, whether it be a stranger or a household member, has already been met with the unfortunate occurrence.  A prayer can't go back in time and change the past.  Once Hashem causes to pass whatever He wills for so-and-so, whether it be positive or negative, we must accept it with humility and submissiveness.  We assume a certain passivity, similar to Noach.  Hashem's wisdom and reasoning behind what He causes to happen is usually beyond us, and for whatever He made His ratzon, we have to try to see the bigger picture, and understand that this, too, is for the ultimate good, and part of the Master Plan.

On the flip side of the coin...

We can certainly pray for anything before the fact, and of course during any course of events for guidance and clarity to deal with it.  We were given a voice as a tool in the service of Hashem.  We are reminded of this frequently when we recite the verse {Tehillim 51:17} before the Amida "Ado-nai s'fasai t'fitach, u'fi yagid t'hilasecha -- My Lord, open my lips, that my mouth may declare Your praise".  We are indeed as nothing before Hashem in prayer, so we must ask Him to instill within us with the inspiration to simply speak, and to allow His energy and words to flow through the vessel that we make ourselves into; thus we pray to open our lips with "Your praise".  Like a person who speaks meanwhile deeply focused on an idea or teaching, he speaks without selectivity or calculation, but his words just flow forth like water, so it should be with us when we are immersed in tefillah.  A most beautiful insight, drawn from Chabad.org's Online Siddur with Commentary, jewels of Chassidus, that I credit to Mrs. Nechama Laber for teaching me just yesterday morning.  Perhaps I digressed slightly, but this insight also emphasizes how we are created to praise G-d.  Also, praying to Hashem in fact is one of the greatest ways of revealing Him in this world!  Please see here for further elaboration on this subject.

You may have been visited before by the question of "Why does G-d need my tefillos anyway?"  In truth, He doesn't require our prayers, but He loves them and is awaiting them nonetheless.  We need to pray; our davening changes us, and molds us into greater, more conscious and connected beings, and also has a profound effect on the world around us.  Tefillah is a gift for every person, for every occasion and all time.  It's a treasure and bond that can never be expropriated from us.  Chazal (our Sages) teach us, that 'even if a sword is at your throat, do not cease your prayers,' for Hashem can make a miracle occur at any moment, even until the last.  Perhaps Yogi Bera was channeling Chazal when he famously said "It ain't over 'til it's over...  Hopefully, it will not take something so drastic for us to realize the relevance and constancy of prayer.  Nothing is too small to request; what we can offer thanks for is limitless; and praise is a precious purpose  that is ours to fulfill. 

Be unafraid to assert yourself on behalf of others, emulating Avraham and Moshe.  Don't forget to use your voice to pray for those in distress, for those who are facing great challenges in life, and for those who just need a little spark of joy, life, and inspiration, to reach the heights for which they were created to achieve.

Passivism or protestation...  Ultimately, is one approach better that the other?  I leave the question to you.

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One last Chiddush on tefillah, and a lesson that can be drawn from a seemingly technical detail on the teiva (ark):

First, the Chiddush drawn from R' Tzvi Freeman's Daily Dose, entitled "The Ark":  There is a violent sea storm raging.  The waves are hurling, and their mighty force leaves a wake of destruction.  The relentless waves are the struggles and stresses of fighting to maintain a livelihood, of not knowing which direction to turn, or not knowing what lays ahead, and the indecision and insecurities...  They churn in a confusion of opposites in temperature and bearing.  But how can you save yourself from this sorry fate, from being storm-tossed any longer in these suffocating currents?  Mirror Noach, and create for yourself an ark.  The Hebrew word for "an ark" is "teiva," which curiously means "a word" as well, in Lashon haKodesh.  Your ark, your ticket to personal salvation, shall be your words of prayer and reflection.  Enter into your ark; ease yourself into the other world of your mindful, prayerful moment; let it surround you with its safety and security; and allow it to lift you up upon the rushing waters, instead of letting them drag you down and drown you.

The second, is an insight of my own connecting R' Freeman's wisdom from the Rebbe, to a Rashi on this parsha:  Hashem instructs Noach to build the ark {Bereishis 6:14-16}, and describes the size requirements in pasuk 15:
"'V'zeh asher ta'aseh osah shalosh mei'os amah orech hateiva chamishim amah rachba ushloshim amah komasa -- And this [is the size] you shall make it: three hundred cubits the length of the ark, fifty cubits its breadth, and thirty cubits its height.'"
We learn from here that the ark was thirty cubits (approximately 45 feet) tall.  Now, let's jump forward in the sidra to the commencement of the Great Flood:
"Vay'hi Mabul arba'im yom al-ha'aretz v'yirbu hamayim vayisu aet-hateiva vataram may'al ha'aretz. -- Now the Flood was forty days upon the earth, and the waters increased, and they lifted the ark, and it rose off the earth." {Bereishis 7:17}
Rashi comments on the clause "vataram may'al ha'aretz - and it rose off the earth," and he explains that even as the teiva rose up with the ever-increasing water's surface, the lower 11 cubits remained submerged beneath the surface, like any loaded ship worth its salt.  This indicates that 19 cubits still reached above the water.  But never mind the numbers-- I'm not one much for arithmetic.  What intrigues me is the fact that a measure of the ship was indeed surrounded by the great deep.  For if the ark is a symbol of our prayer, which delivers us from being completely drowned by the hustle and trials of making a living, perhaps this 'minor' detail Rashi brings into focus, can remind us that even in the workspace, even in the midst of a busy, hectic setting or crunching hour, we can still break out into prayer to our King.  At any time, in any place, forever and always.  He's waiting to hear it.  And we're secretly yearning to let it burst forth.

Monday, April 24, 2017

Yom HaZikaron LaShoah - A Personal Tefillah

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Hashem, when the pain and suffering raged, the horror that we cannot fully comprehend today engulfed all of Your Children, it seemed like You turned away from us, disowned us.  We felt like we lost our Father, and His guidance and love.  Although our hope for a change may have dwindled, we never completely lost our faith in You.  But still, so many of us felt estranged.

That is why, Hashem, I pour out my heart to You today.  You have blessed me greatly– I am so fortunate that I am able to recognize Your Hand in every day of my life.  That is why I now speak to You openly, like a child to their parent– I’m so grateful I can be close to you, and serve You openly and freely.

Hashem, Tatte, we really don’t know why you allowed the Holocaust to happen.  Why you gave your Children such a challenging nisayon.  Perhaps, Hashem, You wanted us to strengthen our bond and commitment to You, and to one another?  That has been a reason in the past for Your testing us…  Perhaps you sent us the Satan, in Nazi soldier garb and guise, to bring us to lift ourselves up, and become stronger…  But we truly aren’t sure.  Only You, Hashem, know the answer, and we can only have trust that it was all for the best, for everything You cause to happen is wise, and part of the Master Plan.

So please, Hashem, since we don’t know, since we may be lost, please, shine a little light, and strengthen and guide us, to always follow in the ways of Your precious Torah, and Your most sincere ratzon.  Please grant us binah, understanding, to realize without pain, that it’s not for us to fully comprehend Your will.  Please give us the understanding and strength, to just trust, and to persevere and grow, even in the darkest of times.

Hashem, during the Holocaust, our ancestors went through monstrosities that we can’t really begin to imagine.  Maybe we shouldn’t try to envision it…  Normal lives, and safety and security stripped; homes ravaged, and belongings stolen, and given to Gentile strangers; families torn apart, love ones murdered before their eyes; bodies, minds, and hearts brutalized…  It was attempted to eliminate our existence, crush our dreams, snuff out our future, take away our soul, Torah, and faith…  Hashem, please, never again!!!  It’s been so hard Hashem, we’ve gone through so much…  Please hear our tefillos and cries, see our efforts, and let it be no more.  Please, bring us Geulah (Redemption)– call us Home, and wrap us in Your arms.  Hashem, we only want You!

We beg You, never again, but also we plead with You… So that we never forget.  Hashem, of course it is known to You, for You witness and record, and repay in kind, every action of every creation, that we are suffering from another tragedy:  Numerous people in this world, are twisting the truth of the Holocaust, cutting out significant parts of the real story, or even denying it altogether!  How is this possible?  Can people be so ignorant, or cruel and insensitive, to disgrace the memory of all the perished, and their souls, in this manner?  It is even an insult to the living, and offense to their children, a blemish upon their legacy.  Please Hashem, help us to teach our children properly about the Shoah (Holocaust), even as horrific as it was.  Help us to transmit the story, in truth and completeness, to each and every one, each according to age and understanding and maturity.  Help us, and strengthen us, to combat this evil of distortion and denial.  Never again… but never forget.

Please, may it be Your will, that all of our mitzvos, and all of the sparks we kindle, elevate the neshamas of all those You called home during the Shoah.  You promised our forefathers, Hashem, that we will never be totally extinguished.  You promised us a future, one filled with light… Yet, we can be lights today, matches igniting sparks of all souls, fusing past, present, and future.  “Neir Hashem Nishmas Adam – The soul of man is the Candle of Hashem.”  (Mishlei/Proverbs 20:27)

Thank You Hashem for brining us to this day, and for our blessings.  Thank you for all of Your lessons.  And thank You, for all the good, light, and meaning– both obvious and hidden.
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Please Hashem…  may we be worthy of Moshiach.  We’re weary, but ready.  We’re ready for the light, we’re ready to be reunited with our loved ones at Your great feat of Techiyas Hamaisim (Resurrection of the Dead), we’re ready to all join together to serve You freely, and come close to You.  We’re ready to live in a world enveloped in peace, no longer suffering and war-torn.  We’re ready to settle in Yerushalayim–  once glorious, once stolen from our hands, once barred from us… But ready to shine again!

Moshiach now!